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Boo and Kitty.

Mar 2

Matins - Louise Glück

Forgive me if I say I love you: the powerful
are always lied to since the weak are always
driven by panic. I cannot love
what I can’t conceive, and you disclose
virtually nothing: are you like the hawthorn tree,
always the same thing in the same place,
or are you more the foxglove, inconsistent, first springing up
a pink spike on the slope behind the daisies,
and the next year, purple in the rose garden? You must see
it is useless to us, this silence that promotes belief
you must be all things, the foxglove and the hawthorn tree,
the vulnerable rose and tough daisy—we are left to think
you couldn’t possibly exist.  Is this
what you mean us to think, does this explain
the silence of the morning,
the crickets not yet rubbing their wings, the cats
not fighting in the yard?

If you’re like salt
come lie upon my wounds.

- Khalīl Tālaqānī

The Quiet World - Jeffrey McDaniel

In an effort to get people to look
into each other’s eyes more,
and also to appease the mutes,
the government has decided
to allot each person exactly one hundred  
and sixty-seven words, per day.

When the phone rings, I put it to my ear  
without saying hello. In the restaurant  
I point at chicken noodle soup.
I am adjusting well to the new way.

Late at night, I call my long distance lover,  
proudly say I only used fifty-nine today.  
I saved the rest for you.

When she doesn’t respond,
I know she’s used up all her words,  
so I slowly whisper I love you
thirty-two and a third times.
After that, we just sit on the line  
and listen to each other breathe.

Out of Danger - James Fenton

Heart be kind and sign the release
As the trees their loss approve.
Learn as leaves must learn to fall
Out of danger, out of love.

What belongs to frost and thaw
Sullen winter will not harm.
What belongs to wind and rain
Is out of danger from the storm.

Jealous passion, cruel need
Betray the heart they feed upon.
But what belongs to earth and death
Is out of danger from the sun.

I was cruel, I was wrong—
Hard to say and hard to know.
You do not belong to me.
You are out of danger now—

Out of danger from the wind,
Out of danger from the wave,
Out of danger from the heart
Falling, falling out of love.

Dreaming of Li Bai - Du Fu

The pain of death’s farewells grows dim.
The pain of life’s farewells stay new.
Since you were exiled to Jiangnan
– Plague land – I’ve had no news of you.

Proving how much you’re in my thoughts,
Old friend, you’ve come into my dreams.
I thought you were still in the law’s
Tight net – but you’ve grown wings, it seems.

I fear yours is no living soul.
How could it make this distant flight?
You came: the maple woods were green.
You left: the pass was black with night.

The sinking moonlight floods my room.
Still hoping for your face, I stare.
The water’s deep, the waves are wide.
Watch out for water dragons there.

(Translated by Vikram Seth)

Stanzas from Rumi (Translated by Coleman Barks)

When I am with you, we stay up all night.
When you’re not here, I can’t go to sleep.

Praise God for these two insomnias!
And the difference between them.

*

The minute I heard my first love story,
I started looking for you, not knowing
how blind that was.

Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere.
They’re in each other all along.

*

We are the mirror as well as the face in it.
We are tasting the taste this minute
of eternity. We are pain
and what cures pain, both. We are
the sweet cold water and the jar that pours.

*

I want to hold you close like a lute,
so we can cry out with loving.

You would rather throw stones at the mirror?
I am the mirror, and here are the stones.

Other Lives And Dimensions And Finally A Love Poem - Bob Hicok

My left hand will live longer than my right. The rivers
     of my palms tell me so.
Never argue with rivers. Never expect your lives to finish
          at the same time. I think

praying, I think clapping is how hands mourn. I think
     staying up and waiting
for paintings to sigh is science. In another dimension this
          is exactly what’s happening,

it’s what they write grants about: the chromodynamics
     of mournful Whistlers,
the audible sorrow and beta decay of Old Battersea Bridge.
          I like the idea of different

theres and elsewheres, an Idaho known for bluegrass,
     a Bronx where people talk
like violets smell. Perhaps I am somewhere patient, somehow
          kind, perhaps in the nook

of a cousin universe I’ve never defiled or betrayed
     anyone. Here I have
two hands and they are vanishing, the hollow of your back
          to rest my cheek against,

your voice and little else but my assiduous fear to cherish.
     My hands are webbed
like the wind-torn work of a spider, like they squeezed
          something in the womb

but couldn’t hang on. One of those other worlds
     or a life I felt
passing through mine, or the ocean inside my mother’s belly
          she had to scream out.

Here, when I say I never want to be without you,
     somewhere else I am saying
I never want to be without you again. And when I touch you
          in each of the places we meet,

in all of the lives we are, it’s with hands that are dying
     and resurrected.
When I don’t touch you it’s a mistake in any life,
          in each place and forever.

Jan 8

The skin is composed of two main parts: the dermis and the epidermis.

Odd to think that the piece of you I know best is already dead. The cells on the surface of your skin are thin and flat without blood vessels or nerve endings. Dead cells, thickest on the palms of your hands and the soles of your feet. Your sepulchral body, offered to me in the past tense, protects your soft centre from the intrusions of the outside world. I am one such intrusion, stroking you with necrophiliac obsession, loving the shell laid out before me.

The dead you is constantly being rubbed away by the dead me. Your cells fall and flake away, fodder to dust mites and bed bugs. Your droppings support colonies of life that graze on skin and hair no longer wanted. You don’t feel a thing. How could you? All your sensation comes from deeper down, the live places where the dermis is renewing itself, making another armadillo layer. You are a knight in shining armour.

Rescue me. Swing me up beside you, let me hold on to you, arms around your waist, head nodding against your back. Your smell soothes me to sleep, I can bury myself in the warm goosedown of your body. Your skin tastes salty and slightly citrus. When I run my tongue in a long wet line across your breasts I can feel the tiny hairs, the puckering of the aureole, the cone of your nipple. Your breasts are beehives pouring honey.

I am creature who feeds at your hand. I would be the squire rendering excellent service. Rest now, let me unlace your boots, massage your feet where your skin is calloused and sore. There is nothing distasteful about you to me; not sweat nor grime, not disease and its dull markings. Put your foot in my lap and I will cut your nails and ease the tightness of a long day. It has been a long day for you to find me. You are bruised all over. Burst figs are the livid purple of your skin.

The leukaemic body hurts easily. I could not be rough with you now, making you cry out with pleasure close to pain. We’ve bruised each other, broken the capillaries shot with blood. Tubes hair-thin intervening between arteries and veins, those ramified blood vessels that write the body’s longing. You used to flush with desire. That was when we were in control, our bodies conspirators in our pleasure.

My nerve endings became sensitive to minute changes in your skin temperature. No longer the crude lever of Hot or Cold, I tried to find the second when your skin thickened. The beginning of passion, heat coming through, heartbeat deepening, quickening. I knew your blood vessels were swelling and your pores expanding. The physiological effects of lust are easy to read. Sometimes you sneezed four or five times like a cat. It’s such an ordinary thing, happening millions of times a day all over the world. An ordinary miracle, your body changing under my hands. And yet, how to believe in the obvious surprise? Extraordinary, unlikely that you should want me.

I’m living on my memories like a cheap has-been. I’ve been sitting in this chair by the fire, my hand on the cat, talking aloud, fool-ramblings. There’s a doctor’s text-book fallen open on the floor. To me it’s a book of spells. Skin, it says. Skin.

You were milk-white and fresh to drink. Will your skin discolour, its brightness blurring? Will your neck and spleen distend? Will the rigorous contours of your stomach swell under an infertile load? It may be so and the private drawing I keep of you will be a poor reproduction then. It may be so but if you are broken then so am I.

- Jeanette Winterson, Written on the Body

(Source: icanread)